i realised that i am a silly fool that easily put trust in ppl. why is that whenever i decided to put my heart to do sth for good den i realised that i am wrong. Or is it that i am just dam an easy prey for ppl to simply attack n left for it to die on it own.

i seriously think that i need a reflection on myself, on my character as well. Is it because of me being too friendly? If that really so, and i ended up lay bleeding on my own, will it then finally teach me a hard lesson to change for good.

perhaps i seriously need to change for good before i can really able to meet the right one for me ba!

i am super disappointed in myself for being so weak. i simply hate the facts that i am weak! which make myself being a easy prey to attack on.

If ONE DAY I TURN STRONGER FOR MY VERY OWN SAKE, I WILL THANK THE PERSON FOR MAKING ME SO, IN PERSON. THAT SHALL BE THE TIME I TURN STRONG AND DUN NID ANYONE TO BE THERE FOR ME ANYMORE BECAUSE I ALRDY GET USED TO BEING ALONE AND LEARNT HOW TO LIVE AS A PERSON HONESTLY !!!!

at times how i wish that i can build a wall, a strong wall that block away the negative stuffs away from me. Just prevent all those negative tink from attacking me. Prevent any negative impacts on me. SO that i can be as positive for as long as i want.

why am i so naive? why am i so defenceless against ppl? why do i still haf that mindset of a child, only tink of the nice and wonderful tink that can happen on me, without thinkin wad is the negative impacts that hurt me? am i a easy target to prey on ? am i just too rush into stuffs?

i think there simply too much of stuffs i nid to reflect on and changes for the good!!!!

IM HAPPY!!